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[retry_1]

Ok, so how does this thread work you ask? It's a lot like a rant thread but really more deep. If you can't think of a polite way to state your opinion on someone's post, don't respond to it.

Ok so a few days before Christmas, my mom was diagnosed with diabetes she's been having a rough time and has been stressed about it , she has a very stressful job witch is adding to the problem she has been taking her frustrations out on me and my sister yelling at us and saying we don't care about her and we think she shouldn't care about herself.Her doctor recently told her she though she was also having seasures(sp?) I am really afraied and it's hard to deal with watching her then hearing that she thinks i don't care...
just needed to get that off my chest

[Overdose]

I'm anti-social and highly distrustful of people. All of this because I have very low self esteem because deep down I actually care too much about the opinion of others about me. I enjoy helping people with their problems but that's because I'd rather deal with theirs than my own though also because I still have a general good in my heart so I'll care and always try my best to help them.

I'm quiet but it's not always because I enjoy listening it's because I'm too worried to display any unwanted emotion and reveal weakness. I'm quite territorial and I enjoy order, when people are aggresive towards my territory and my order are responded with deadly force. My sense of humor is dry and sarcarstic most likely because eventually after much hearing you'll realize that some people don't give a single second of thought before speech though the biggest joke of all for me is myself.

If you pollute the ocean I'll murder you. :stickattack3:

Ah I feel much better now.. it was like a release of my dark side.

Edited by Overdose, 29 January 2007 - 04:18.

[Comr4de]

Well I might aswell share.

I think I overwork to much and play much to such an extent to where I'm absolutely exhausted. I'm a work addict - whether it be Schoolwork which I have to finish in time, to either something for the mods, I enjoy making ideas for it but In turn keeps my mind busy at all times. Sure I go with my friends to watch movies, video games ect , but due to all of this has left little time to spend with my family and sleep.

Sometimes I find myself skipping breakfast/dinner just to play a game or go with friends, and in turn has left me in a way with less energy throught the day. On top of that I end up going to bed late during the weekends, or weekdays if I have a late class, or if I get stuck on working on school/offtime works leaving me tired for for most of the day. The thing that bugs me the most is that I no longer do the exersize I used to do, and therefore leaving me worried that I'm getting weaker somewhat. On top of this I continously have my parents tell me the same thing, "theres a limit to everything, your not an exemption" or "You look sick/tired" all of the time, which then makes me think of my health again.

I'm trying my best to get myself out of the habit of getting on the computer as soon as I get home - and try not to skip a meal. I dont think I'm depressed, just anxious - to finish whatever I need to do regardless, and thus far it's made me healthwise not so well as I used to be.

...not that I'm dying or anything, but its just a concern so it wont become out of control in the future.

Edited by Comr4de, 29 January 2007 - 04:55.

[Lord Atlantis]

About myself.

I have noticed that I am addicted to hanging out with friends, no matter what kind fo friend it is. Whether it is playing with my favorite friends on Xbox Live, posting on the forums, or IM'ing other friends. I believe I am just a little bit too friendly. Because I have so many freinds, I have to give them equal treatment, which in turn takes away from the family and other groups of friends. Currently I haven't been spending much time w/ my Xbox Live fans because of my duties in the Mappers Guild. And espically now since I am a Co-Leader.

And it doesn't help when I have been known to bottle up my emotions and be so up-tight all the time. People don't enjoy me as much 'cause of that, but I have noticed that is getting better. I am more lively and my friends enjoy it. I also don't like being put on the spot, which is kind of hard being the smart person that I am. I get reconized in class or in front of a croud and my self-confidence is gone. But like showing the emotions, I do believe it is getting better. Since I am feeling more emotions, life seems brighter and I have self confidence to ask that girl that I like out. Actually, tomorrow (monday) I plan on asking her out to the Winter Ball. That wouldn't have happened earlier.

And I am sort of afraid of other things that other people have. I don't want to know what will happen to me when I get a MySpace or a Gaia account. Probably what has happened with the E-Studios, but worse. I would be on the computer 24/7 with out end. That is someone that I don't want to become.

Had to get that off my chest...

-Lord_Atlantis

[General]

I am pretty anti-social at offline , although I am pretty open in web .
I hardly go out and talk with my friends , and then at least I have only 1 friend left , I have no other person to talk with . Also I am a very angry person , when someone insult me or the things I like , I get out of control , I don't think so this is normal , I want to be more polite and relax person , but I just can't do it . Also I am pretty fond to womans . But I never let other peoples to notice that , if you see me in real life , you will think I am not straight since I never touch a woman's hand and rarely talk with them , this is not because I hate them or something , this is from embarrasment I have in me . My work - friends tell me that I need to have sex for get pass from that embarrasment . I think they maybe right but I still have quite embarrassment inside me . And I talk with a very low voice tone , which other peoples always complain and tell me : What are you saying ? Talk louder ! Also when someone say something againist my religion or being racist , my brain is like burning and I get a bad headache if I not tell something againist him/her .

Thats all .

[spiderspag]

Get drunk! Dutch courage, man, that's what you need! Then its easy! And if you get rejected, you don't care coz she was a bitch anyways hahaha!

[Lord Atlantis]

Well spiderspag seems to be doing just fine...

-Lord_Atlantis

[Comr4de]

In a way, he's just saying keep looking forward with optimism.

...somewhere.

[Overdose]

 spiderspag, on 1 Feb 2007, 01:09, said:

Get drunk! Dutch courage, man, that's what you need! Then its easy! And if you get rejected, you don't care coz she was a bitch anyways hahaha!

There's absolute truth in that sentence.

[Mathias]

Things are a bit different where Nemesis lives, guys. Although remember this. Do you feel like a total idiot next to other people? Very selfconscious? Feel like everyone's better than you?

DON'T.

Nobody cares about how you look or act. Everyone's thinking about themselves. By being a total pussy, you are only hurting yourself. And by letting yourself go - YOU LOSE NOTHING! There's nothing to fear except for fear itself. It sounds cheesy, but it's still true.

Now, about myself.
My greatest personal flaw is my total irresponsibility. I can never devote myself to things who do not immediately interest me; on the other hand, if something interests me, I devote myself entirely to it. Although I am outspoken and self confident, I have a paralyzing fear of speaking infront of crowds. Which more often than not tends to complicate some things at school. I find it baffling how I can be a total pussy sometimes and a social giant other times.

I need space, I need to take control of my life.. But there's always that one more day. I can deal with it tomorrow. I'd rather get myself a cup of tea and read this, watch that, hang out, sit down and work on the latest tune. Escape from reality. ARRRRGHH.

I have way too much talent and almost no willpower. It's a pathetic "personal flaw" and one I could easily get rid of. But I never do. I... yeah. I need to get a fucking job soon.

[Sic]

 Mathias, on 1 Feb 2007, 11:23, said:

Things are a bit different where Nemesis lives, guys. Although remember this. Do you feel like a total idiot next to other people? Very selfconscious? Feel like everyone's better than you?

DON'T.

Nobody cares about how you look or act. Everyone's thinking about themselves. By being a total pussy, you are only hurting yourself. And by letting yourself go - YOU LOSE NOTHING! There's nothing to fear except for fear itself. It sounds cheesy, but it's still true.

Now, about myself.
My greatest personal flaw is my total irresponsibility. I can never devote myself to things who do not immediately interest me; on the other hand, if something interests me, I devote myself entirely to it. Although I am outspoken and self confident, I have a paralyzing fear of speaking infront of crowds. Which more often than not tends to complicate some things at school. I find it baffling how I can be a total pussy sometimes and a social giant other times.

I need space, I need to take control of my life.. But there's always that one more day. I can deal with it tomorrow. I'd rather get myself a cup of tea and read this, watch that, hang out, sit down and work on the latest tune. Escape from reality. ARRRRGHH.

I have way too much talent and almost no willpower. It's a pathetic "personal flaw" and one I could easily get rid of. But I never do. I... yeah. I need to get a fucking job soon.

Those words speak for me. If I like something, I can't stop doing it and devote myself to it, forgetting other things.
Another thing about me is that I am a lazy asshole too. I take the book with me, but I can't concentrate on it.
I start looking at THE TABLE but not the damn book. I read a line, go two paragraphs behind , read it to the line that I read earlier , read the line and skip a whole damn paragraph because I'm not interested. Then, I see that I didn't understand.